It's hard to explain myself why I'm doing this. I keep trying because I am used to having reasons for my actions. I've come so far without leaving a gap in this chain of reasoning only to realize that it doesn't really matter. At least not as much as I thought it would. It's okay to do things and then see how they unfold. In any case, I must have been doing this without knowing. It couldn't be possible otherwise. At least once, I must have wrongly convinced myself that the course of my life is purely the result of ...Read More